What are dreams made of?

Yesterday, I woke up from my short nap with a nightmare. Wait a minute, if it is not at night, should we call it noonmare or napmare? hahah! Anyway, it was something very unpleasant that I feel that I had to write and not just keep it inside. Telling someone about your dreams may not always be the right thing to do, because sometimes a dream just doesn't make sense.

From what I gather from a dictionary, a dream is the experience of envisioned images, sounds, or other sensations during sleep. It occurs in humans, most mammals, and some birds. The events of dreams are often impossible or unlikely to occur in physical reality, and are usually outside the control of the dreamer. The exception is lucid dreaming, in which dreamers realize that they are dreaming, and are sometimes capable of changing their oneiric reality and controlling various aspects of the dream, in which the suspension of disbelief is often broken.Dreamers may experience strong emotions while dreaming. Frightening or upsetting dreams are referred to as nightmares.

Okay, I know I had a bad dream aka nightmare. Let me share it with you. For the past 6 months, I have gotten to know a girl who works in the company as I am. We contact mostly through the phone as she is based in HQ and myself based in a branch. Our work are related, without her I can't finish my part and without me, she cannot finish her part. Anyway, the friendship started very nicely. She has a very sweet voice indeed, being the "bachelor" here my mind always plays tricks with me. I would be thinking to myself "sounds like someone I would take out on a date"

Anyway, it was only after 3 months that we had spoken through the phone that we finally met up for the first time when I popped over to HQ for a meeting. You know sometimes reality strikes you when you least expected. She is practically visually perfect, not the perfect perfect but the kind of girl that I would want to have a date with or bring home to your parents or introduce to your friends kind of perfect I guess.

As most people know by now that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I've always had a weakness for women with large eyes and she has all that. I admit I like a woman with slightly tanned skin as well, which she was indeed. Overall, she is one hot cupcake ;p

She dresses very well and is fashionable from head to toe..you couldn't find any more even in the way she combs her hair. Ok! Let me snap out of my dream! Hahah! But one really important thing that I REALLY have to tell you is that she's married! Yeap, disappointed? Somewhat..but I had seen past that stage already. Even if I didn't end up romantically with her, I find her as a friend that I would keep for the rest of my life.

She knows how to comfort me when I'm feeling down, she reads me like a book and we have lots of things in common, we even went to the same college, our interests are quite matched up and we can talk a lot, a lot! Then one day, she told me that she was pregnant and I was overjoyed for her.

As time passed by, our friendship grew stronger and once in a while she would come over to my branch for a visit and we'll have lunch together and talk about thing from work to life. Of course I always try to compliment her as most women would start to feel depressed when they get pregnant. I'm not sure but I think it would be because they would feel fat and disappointed when they can't fit in their clothes anymore and their body starts to change dramatically within months. I think what they want to hear is that you still look good no matter what, beautifully pregnant! I am sure most of you would agree there is such a thing as "beautifully pregnant". It may not be the right term but it is something like the term "aging gracefully"

With her, I feel that I cherish the friendship a lot. She makes feel like "wouldn't it be nice if I had someone like her?" That kind of feeling I guess and at the same time I feel that I treasure the friendship a lot and would not do silly things to jeopardize it in any way.

Ok..about my dream. She was wearing a wedding dress but she was pregnant! Anyway, as I can remember, her friend which was following her around was a Cheryl Samad lookalike. You guys know who is Cheryl? She's the spokeperson for watson. I am sure everyone has notice her before.

What was going on was that she wanted to take a picture with me, so we chose to sit on the stools of a bar and her friend took the photo for us. She gave me a hug and a kiss and left. I stood there for a moment and watch her walk away before decided to go to the washroom. Somehow, I went through a maze of stairs trying to find a washroom but then it ended more like trying to find my way out of the maze. Each time I opened the door, I would be right back at the bar where I took the photo. And each time, I would go back down the maze of stairs. This kept on for several times until this one time when I see my friend lying on the floor looking out the window. When I called out her name, she just looked at me and looked out the window. After that, I just went on with my maze and ended up back at the bar again.

The next time I step into the maze of stairs would finally make me tremble with terror. Lying on the floor is my friend..covered in some liquid all over the floor and she was unconcious, I somehow knew something had happened to her baby...I carried her up and rush through the door shouting "help! Please help her! somebody please help her!" as I look at her helplessly and I woke up sweating and my heartbeat pounding loudly through my chest.

It was the worst dream that I ever had about a friend. It was just a dream but it seemed so real. I was feeling concerned and I started praying that she will always be safe with her family. These are the dreams that you shouldn't tell the person itself unless it is something pleasant. I guess sometimes our minds does play tricks on us. It puts all the things that we go through in life together and mashed it all up. I guess if you really analyzed the dream, a psychiatrist would tell you something.


My close friend (gossip partner) at my previous job once told me that she dreamnt about me telling her that I was going to quit my job on the day that I had submitted my resignation letter to my boss! And I was about to tell her when she told me her dream!!! Some dreams are very appreciative when you tell someone that you have dreamed about them because it is a sign that you are concerned about them. For me, we ended up spending our money buying 4D numbers of my car, my employee ID and my birthday. It was a nice try though ;p

Sometimes you have a dream and when it happens in reality, you would say deja vu. But this is one dream that I never want to see happening in my life.

Mr. Ant is back!

Hi everyone!

It's been 2 years since I last wrote a blog! My god! Time flies when you least expect it. Well, not much changes in my life but I did something different in 2006, compared to 2005.

In early 2006, I went on a holiday trip (which I have not done in years) to Cambodia to witness the magnificent monuments of Angkor. It was breath taking in the sense to think there was such a well organized civillization hundreds of years ago. Anyway, thanks to Airasia everyone can travel! =)

In 2006 was a transition year for me. I finally quit my job which I have disliked for many years. Now I am with the Automotive industry in sales! It is no doubt a tough challenge as the car market has been slow this year. Well, I hope it does get better this year. I joined in November last year and has since been working day by day in....RAWANG!!! RAWANG?!?!?! Yeah, people are asking me.."Are you serious???" Yes, I am. I have given up the luxuries and comforts of Petaling Jaya/Subang Jaya for the Cowboy town Rawang.

What makes me say that it is a cowboy town? Well, everybody breaks the rules. There is no such thing as one way street or driving on the wrong side of the road because you see it happening almost everyday. People take risks like this just to be convenient about crossing the road rather than taking the bridge or saving time to make that U-turn. You might ask me.."Is that all?"

Well, there is more than meets the eye! Do you know that the most vandalized item in Rawang are traffic lights! You bet they are! Because of all the lorries driving and speeding like maniacs! I kind of put my life at rish each and everyday just to get to work.

Apart from all the bad and the ugly from Rawang, there is also the good. What's good? Fish! Yes, I am not joking, Fish! To be precise, the type of fish would be errr..I'm not sure..let me get back to you all.

Anyway, there's a lot of food for taste in Rawang...not the usual fine dining kind of place that's for sure but somehow the food are delicious despite without the fancy surroundings. If it's an Italian looking for some Pasta, or a Swedish searching for meatballs, then I have to say sorry because there's not much western interest in Rawang.

It's still the old fashioned, malay..indian...chinese cuisine...home made in most cases but slowly gaining commercial recognition which would eventually spoil all the taste I'm sure. Perhaps I will go through with ya all some of the "places to eat in Rawang list". Well, if anyone plans for a trip to Rawang, it's not really that bad. You can golf around before you decide to try the food. Who knows you might like it.

Let me talk a bit about my job. I am currently working as a Sales Executive at Toyota Rawang Branch (Yes! There is a Toyota Showroom in Rawang!) Most makes have come and go but Toyota Rawang has prevailed for the last 10 years.

The showroom is not something spectacular but is a End lot shop. The working environment is pretty ok, I work with a bunch of very different characters, sales people. Yeap, the job that I am doing is all about managing them and maintaining the operations of the branch. My previous job was in IT and now this is an opportunity for me to learn about managing a business. The only person that I report to is my branch manager. So, it's not that bad.

After switching my job, I realized that no matter where you work, the most important thing are the people that you work with. They will determine if you will stay in the company long or not. It's not really about the money is it? Unless you're like a manager or the CEO of a company...perhaps that is a different story.

Anyway, the workload has been heavy since I joined. It's already 6 months up to now that I have been working in Rawang. Yes, I still have the dislikes and all but I am just trying to blend into the job. I have definitely a lot of the tricks and trades of the automotive industry that's for sure.

This has also brought to my attention that my social circle is slowly reducing. I don't really have much time on my hands to meet up with my friends or even go out on a date. For the past year, many have gotten married and when most people get married, they tend to concentrate more on family rather than friends. Despite all these obstacles, I still meet up for tea once in a while.

I don't even have much time for activities other than my job, which I think is a serious matter. Well, I'm still holding on. I'll hold on as long as I can before I make another switch. Being in sales, I get to meet quite a lot of people whom sometimes I tend to forget their names as well because there are just to many business cards to keep around.

Of late, I wonder if it is just coincidence or just plain unlucky, I have met with very nice girls (I'm still single!) You know, friendly girls whom I get along well at work as well as colleagues back in my HQ who visit me once in a while. I have actually gone beyond the friendly stage with them. You know, when we meet up, it's not just talking about work anymore. We share our life stories and all.

As I have always said to myself, getting to know someone is the best part of a friendship. And then from friendship it grows to something more. But most of the time it doesn't. You meet someone really nice, that you can laugh, have a good meaningful conversation, share a meal together and the next thing you when you dig deeper, they're either attached or married. Well, I have no problem with that, I just think to myself "How lucky her husband or bf is to know someone like her".

Yeah, it's envy you sensed there. I am not denying it. The comfort I get though is at least I got the chance to know them and they are still my friends =)I am not desperately seeking someone but it would be nice to get to know some girls who are still single and whom I fancy for a change! You know that the girl that you fancy most of the time would be hard to come by. You're not being choosy, don't let anyone say that to you. It's all whom is able to catch your heart from the start. I do believe that first impressions count! But then again people try too hard to make and impression and most would end up not being themselves and faking their personality!

I suppose if I am going to find someone, I should be able to tell them all the flaws of me, show it to them fully and if they are able to accept me for who I am (maybe change for the better) then I'd probably be satisfied half heartedly...the next half would probably depend on whether we can get along or not.

I do have one particular flaw that I would like to share with everyone.
This is something very new in Malaysia. I used to think that not many people suffer from this problem. I have known it for many years as I have done my own research and studies. It is definitely very satisfying to know that there are also a group of people whom have similar situations as we do that we can relate to each other.
The term that I am trying to introduce to everyone here is "Hyperhidrosis"
Hyper means extreme, Hidro is something related to water. So if you put 2 and 2 together it would be excessive sweating.

It's a symptom that I have carried with me most of my life since I was young. I use to make my exam papers all wet. The teacher would just think that I am just nervous but in fact I am not that nervous. I was just not understanding my own problems. My parents also didn't take much notice of it until I started going to secondary school. I began to do my own research and finally found the name for my symptom. It is not a disease, it is a flaw in a human physically.

Sweating is a normal thing but we tend to sweat more than usual. I would like to take this opportunity to share with everyone about this. Who knows your friends may be suffering from this and they do not know what is the reason.

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Probably now everyone know how hard that I have to go through to know someone who will accept my big flaw. Anyway, I believe that if you are a good person, eventually nobody will bother about it. They may give you comments or make remarks that will hurt you but you just have to ignore it and look the other side. The most important opinions would come from your friends because they are the ones that are worth listening to.

Hope everyone is enjoying their weekend? Have a nice day!

Ant